I’ve been trying not to get too excited about The Dark Knight Rises. I am excited for it. Especially for Tom Hardy. But I hate that feeling of anticipation that you can’t control, so I’ve tried to keep my excitement under wraps by not thinking about it. But not thinking about the release of this movie is hard. For stupid reasons.

When The Dark Knight came out, I was going through the toughest time I’ve ever had in my life. I had recently lost somebody I loved very much, I had recently lost a job I loved very much, I had recently parted ways with a band that I enjoyed OK enough, I wasn’t writing at all and had zero creative outlet, and because of the downward spiral that came as a result of all those, I was being forced to move out of the apartment that I loved very much. All around, things were shit.

Then Batman gave me an escape. I saw The Dark Knight seven times in the theater. Most of those times when I needed to be packing, or looking for a job, or doing anything to make my miserable life better. But instead, I saw this movie over and over and over again. It gave me a few hours at a time to try and forget everything. It gave me an excuse to be with my friends, and it gave me something to talk to them about. I’m not good at talking about life, so I did so as little as possible and kept the majority of everything to myself, but I’ll fucking talk about Batman any chance I can. And The Dark Knight gave me that.

I don’t even put The Dark Knight on a pedestal like most people do. I enjoyed the movie a lot, but it doesn’t get brought up when talking about my favorite movies ever. It never even gets thought about in that conversation. And overall, I actually think I like Batman Begins a tad more. But at the time, it was definitely the movie I needed.

Flash forward four years, on the eve of The Dark Knight Rises releasing, and I’m in the total opposite place. My life right now is the best it’s ever been. I have a girlfriend I love very much, two daughters I love very much, a son due in a couple of months that I’ll love very much, live in an apartment that I love very much, have two jobs that I enjoy enough and can show up to whenever I want and can get away with saying ‘cunt’ whenever I please, and have multiple creative outlets that are keeping me satisfied, with a few more coming very soon, and I’m writing a ton.

I realize Batman and Christopher Nolan have ZERO to do with the drastic changes in my life around these release dates, but it’s hard not to use them as landmarks on the timeline since they’re so incredibly different.

So, yeah, this isn’t about Batman. It’s about how no matter how rough shit gets, and how miserable life can be, there’s always somewhere to rise to. And sometimes, it doesn’t take too long at all. Stick with it, hang in there, and eventually you’ll get the life you deserve.

And when you do, there’ll be landmarks on your timeline that make you remember the miserable times and make you appreciate the perfect times that much more.

Needless to say, I’m only gonna see The Dark Knight Rises once in theaters. This time, I’ve got better things to do.

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